YOU are like cologne; poisonous, attractive and deadly.

Until today, I still don't master the ability to hold back my feelings.
Even the slightest gentleness you show triggers my feelings.
Again and again, I fall back foolishly.

When will this stop?
How should this be stopped?

Come quickly, Lord, and answer me, for my depression deepens. 

Don’t turn away from me, or I will die.

 –Psalms 143:7

Praying for peace, wisdom and courage to overcome stressful and depressing situations. I am still not brave enough to face challenges in life. 

BEAUTIFUL DAY, WONDERFUL WEATHER, AWESOME GOD

I believe in the sun, even though it doesn't shine,

I believe in love, even when it isn't shown,

I believe in God, even when he doesn't speak.

- Max Lucado, He Still Moves Stones

One of my favorite verse in the bible is taken from Hebrew 11:1,

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see

This faith is embracing Jesus Christ as our one and only Saviour Lord. Having faith in something which you cannot see is indeed a challenge, even for someone like me who claims to believe in Jesus. Facing hardships in life often leaves me in exasperation and these are the times where I find my faith faltering. But during those challenging moments, I thank God for sending His angels/people to nudge me and keep me reminded of His wondrous love. It is really encouraging to know that God was always there, so that I can confide in Him again and again.

Thanks to Nexus(a weekly student bible study group I attend in Cardiff), the discussion we have as a group about the bible message often spells out the core issues we have in relation to our student life as as Christian. It keeps me reflecting on my life as a student, a Christian, a daughter and a friend. The best part is, everything you learn seems to be direct applicable to the current state of your life.

One of the things I've been reminded of from this week's bible study is that Jesus died for us once and for all. There is nothing more we can do to save ourselves but to believe in Him. No human effort would suffice for justification. No matter how hard we try to prove ourselves worthy to be saved by knowing the law(the word of God) in and out, it will never be enough. The only way to eternal life is nothing but to believe in Jesus Christ. Nexus is currently going through the book of Galations, and the theme of the message is 'JESUS + NOTHING = EVERYTHING'.

To non-believers, you might be wondering why we Christians still bother reading the bible and praying since we don't have to do anything to be saved. We're doing it because we believe in God and we love Him for what He had done for us. We love Him that's why we want to do things that are pleasing to Him. We refer to the bible as a guidance to live a life that is pleasing to God.

To believers, I would like to urge you not to forget the purpose of living a life that is pleasing to God. To be reminded that Jesus had already died on the cross for us and washed away our sins. There is nothing more we can do to justify ourselves but to believe in that truth. To do things out of the love for God but not out of self-satisfaction.

Christianity is not a religion. You don't get saved for being religious, you are saved if you believe in Jesus. We should live our Christian life by heart, not solely on works.

WHEN TRUTH UNRAVELS

'Law is a code of behaviour where certain actions had certain consequences' 

                                    - Nineteen Minutes, Jodi Piccoult.

In the same way, life has a law of its own as well,
containing certain consequences to be taken place with certain actions.

Tasted a piece of the law of life today.

Case: Life v Abigail Cheong 

Charged under the law of life of judging, cruelty, immaturity and an unforgiving heart.

Liable for emotional self imprisonment and self condemnation.

Because of the hatreds and immaturity that I've confined in my body,

I've put myself through six years of emotional self imprisonment.

Managed to face the issue for the first time in six years, 

Talked it out with someone whom I've locked out from my life for six years,

someone who used be a very important part of my life.

And finally, I conquered my fears and got back my life.

However, another offence of being judgemental has brought me the liability of self condemnation. 

When you discover that you've wrongly judged a person,

When its too late to take back the what you've said to that person,

When you've also realise how much you've hurt that person,

When it's too late for you to do anything for that person,

When everything becomes past tense,

and that person is someone whom you love so much.

And I'm left with self condemnation.

So the truth unravelled,

bringing happiness and sorrows at the same time.

To that someone I love,

I'm really sorry I didn't take the time to understand you.

Sorry for judging you without considering your point of view.

Sorry for judging your decision.

I've realised that you're still that perfect person I know.

I wish I could go back in time,

and be the first who would stand by your side.

I'm really really sorry.

For all you've done for me,

what I did was just judging you and hurting you.

It must have been really hard on you.

I'm sorry.

Love, your sister.

ONE AND A QUARTER CUP FULL OF HAPPINESS

I know people still don't get why I'd cried over 'Frozen'. For a person who survived 'Lion King'(which probably is one of the saddest disney movie ever), I never expect myself to be so emotional. Its like I'm slowly losing control of my emotions (excuse me and my long stories about my inner conflicts). But its like the first time in forever (Ermagarddd I'm so 'Frozen'ize) I'm having this sort of inner conflict. Oh! And Frozen was not too bad though I still like Tangled more.

Despite having such a hard time dealing with my emotions, I am much grateful for friends who've continuously shown love and care for me (Ngawww I love you guys sooooo much, I wish I was brave enough to tell <3). Knowing how bossy and stubborn I was towards my friends, I was so afraid that I would've soon be left out. I guess can blame it on the youngest child syndrome?

Naming this post 'One & A Quarter Cup Full of Happiness', I believe I have enough, or maybe more than just enough happiness. Felt as if I'd just ended another stage of my life, and yes of course 2014 just started and I'll be entering my twenties in five months' time (But I soooooo don't wanna turn twenty *sobs*)

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

It has always been a tradition in our youth group to make a New Year's Resolution every year end (How I miss those youth days *sigh*). Well, my New Year's Resolution this time is 'Saving money'. Looking back at the amount of money I spent for the past few months since I arrived in the UK, I simply couldn't think of any other resolutions that can be more important than 'saving money'. Second in place would be reading the bible. It's not that I don't read the bible, it's just that I've never finished reading the bible on my own. It is quite a big challenge to me though, seeing how much commitment and discipline this takes. But nevertheless I would still like to give it a go. (Fighting? #koreanwannabe) 

21-12-13

I have a past

and it's taken it's toll.

Looking through my Instagram pictures letting my mind wander

It's funny how life has turned out to be..

..after I screwed things up back then

I have a fear

and it's keeping me away from myself.

No matter how hard I try living a new life 

Fear never fails to come by 

making every new life miserable again.

My past fears are cursing me in the present. 

My past in which I've wished to never live again.

My fear in which I hope it never existed.

It's easy to say 'let the past be the past, and let the fear be gone'

But no one(except the Lord, I guess) really understands how it is to be cursed by your past fears.

Living everyday having the fear of being judged.

Having forgotten who I really am or what I used to be.

I've always thought that time will erase everything

But I guess not exactly everything. 

Putting on a mask can be so heavy to bear. 

It is up till recently when I realised that my fear has made me weak.

Making me more sensitive and depressed than ever.

There are two types of people in the world.

The extroverts and the introverts.

However, people have the choice to pretend to be the other. 

The extroverts can pretend to be introverts;

And the introverts can pretend to be extroverts.

Am I an extrovert who tries to be an introvert?

Or am I an introvert who tries to be an extrovert?

ROAD TO UNIVERSITY

Gah, I skipped a month of blogging again! haha. Well, its time to update all the new things that happened to me. :)

Went to brother's convocation during mid-July and yeah it was fun! :D We even went to Batman Castle! :)

Yup, That's me sitting in front of Batman Castle!

And this is the place where my brother lives (The houses are so small!)

 My family were really proud of my brother because he got a first class honours for his master of Electrical and Electronic Engineering. In addition to that, he received an university award and also some other prize. I'm also very proud to have a smart brother. HEHE. 

After my trip to UK, I went Singapore for ten days. May and Samson(cousins) came to Singapore on the same day. It was my first time meeting Samson in person. It was also many other cousins' first time meeting him, as he was always in America and had trouble coming back to Singapore. Spent my ten days meaningfully in Singapore, stayed with my sister the whole time. My parents also went down to meet May and Samson for a few days. 

We came back on the 10 August(sat) because I had to collect my A level results on the 15 August! Was so nervous before I collect my results. However, praise the Lord that I managed to meet and exceed the conditional offer from Cardiff University. My result is AAB, B for law. D; Was kinda disappointed that I couldn't get an A for law, but still praise the Lord for my results. 

Now its 23 days till I leave for the UK. Going for my visa appointment tomorrow! Hopefully everything can turn out smoothly. Been travelling a lot these days, might be going to Taiwan with my momma early September too!! I'm more excited to go Taiwan even though I've already been there twice. HAHA. But I really love the place <3 

Will remember to update my blog more frequently when I'm in the UK :) (At least I'll try to...)

OFFICIALLY NINETEEN

I'm officially nineteen today. Gah, feel so old right now. HAHA!

Had a birthday party at my place yesterday night! Had lots of fun with my college friends and my best friends :) Got surprises and lots of present :)

But surprisingly, I'm less excited about my birthday this year as compared to past years. I'm happy, but I feels a little bit unrealistic? HAHA.

My room was filled w 'post it's!

I accompanied my best friends most of the time yesterday. Was kind of afraid that my college friends will feel left off. D; Hope they had fun..

My beloved friends, the 1203s :)

But it was nice having my friends around yesterday night! :) Some stayed over my place and we played cards and talked at night! haha. 

This is the end of my college life and I would say that I have really enjoyed it a lot though it was only a year and a half. Got to know so many nice people and had lots of good memories together. :)

Hopefully my university life would be as exciting :) hehe. Got all five offers from the five universities i applied for through UCAS! WOOHOO Thank God!!! <3 The universities I applied for are Birmingham, Leicester, Sheffield, Reading and Cardiff :) Planning to put Cardiff as 1st choice and Reading 2nd. Hopefully my results are okay.... Have to pray hard. hehe

Going to UK in another two weeks for my brother's convocation! hehe :) Audrey and her friends are coming from Singapore to stay at my place tomorrow till Friday! :) Will have to bring them around to play and shop hehehehe. Hope I get to spend my time wisely during my break! :)

STRESS

I'm not sure how I should put this. But Edexcel have turned me into a panda. More like a NIGHT cat. My studying times are in the midnight and I sleep in the day. I'm adjusting myself to a totally different time zone. My biology clock is in a mess. But I focus better in the night, what to do?

Panda says Hi! :)

Its only a few more days till my exams, its now or never! I keep telling myself this. I'm working to get into UK universities now. And my forecast results can't even meet those requirements! So I tell myself if I want to get into UK universities, I have to give my best shot during my last few papers and leave the rest to the Lord. 

I set up a goal everyday. The amount of work I have to complete. For example, 6 law essays, 1 set of accounting paper and 3 sets of C3(Mathematics). I have to finish all these before I sleep. So I put myself into deep stress now. No one to talk to about this. Cause I know everyone is studying as well. I don't want them to feel that I'm boasting. And this is something I promised myself and God to complete everyday. I HAVE to do it, you see.

I have my IELTS writing test tomorrow. Suppose to work on the exercises but at the same time I have to finish my 'workload' for today. I guess I won't be able to get enough sleep then. D;

So stress that even my sweets wouldn't help now. Haven't been this hardworking ever since form 1 I suppose. Never pushed myself till this far before. I listen to soft and soothing music to calm myself down. Can't wait for my exams to end. TT I want to try my best and have no regrets. 

Dear Lord, please give me strength to get through these times. I would like to pray for a healthy body as well, that I can have a healthy body until my exams is over. And if You intend for me to get into UK universities, please show me Your directions Lord. I pray for all this, in Jesus name I pray, Amen. 

今天复习华文

好久没有写华文字了。真的很快的就快把之前所熟悉的词句给忘记了。今天是考试的第一天也是我母亲的生日。不争气的我，是到了考试结束以后，很晚回到家的时候，靠电话提醒才记起今天是妈妈的生日。我知道自己常常很自私，很不孝顺。今天更是让妈妈好失望。我好像又伤了妈妈的心。很欠打吧，像我这种生在福中不知福的人。

今天不止考试，连驾车时都超不顺利的。我的意思不是我出车祸不过是路上不知道是我太不专心还是那些摩托车把路当成自己家开的，喜欢喜欢就停在一边，喜欢喜欢就在别人要转弯时冲过旁边。考试也是。明明还有九分把握的，考完了现在一点信心都没有了。也不知道自己为什么今天在学校会心情低落。我是怎么了嘛。

我最近连灵修都不常做了。好不乖对吧？可能我的异常在于自己的灵命上没吃饱吧。上帝一定很生气我这个女儿，什么事情都做不好。但我知道他还是爱我的，是我自己不珍惜。

最近可能看比较多台湾连续剧，所以会想到说要用华文写部落格。希望你们看得懂，看不懂也罢了。 :) 也是最近心事重重才会那么勤劳来写部落格的. Haha :)

Happy birthday mummy! ❤

DAY 28729372927186392718

Feeling
DIRTY
ROTTEN
DISGUSTING
IRRITATING
EVIL
BROKEN.

Those are basically the words that I want to use to describe myself at the moment.
Didn't want to share it on Facebook. Don't need any comments, don't need any comfort. I just wanna share this with someone, telling them how bad I actually feel about myself. It's so bad I can't even bother to show how rotten I am.

She is right. I am not any different than those magicians. Only regret I had is to make her sad today. But I made my own decision before I went. Was absolutely clear in my mind of what I was doing. I wished that there were better solutions to this. I guess I just did not have enough faith in God. :(

I know myself. I know myself deep in and out. All the things I've done. Only myself,
and God understands. And maybe my only solution will be God and only He can take me as I am despite all my sins.

It's the post of the day. Just not in the mood to elaborate further more.

Oh, and I went for the rally in Kelana Jaya stadium today. It was epic :)

EDEXCEL RESULTS

Have been very lazy these days. And I promised to keep my blog constantly updated. :( I really have very bad discipline.

So, I will start off with my edexcel results I got last Thursday. Being very confident with my business studies, I was so surprised to see a C for both my Unit 1 and Unit 2 paper. Which gives me a C for my AS level result. I was very disappointed with my business studies and I've finally decided to drop this subject just like what most of my other friends did. For accounting, I expected a rather lousy result but it turned out to be a B, which cheered me up a lil. Did badly for mathematics C3 and C4. I'm planning to retake three papers this semester, which includes my accounting unit 1(still am not satisfied with a B, I want an A for all subjects) and both my mathematics paper. If I only wanted an A for mathematics, I didn't have to retake my maths paper cause my average turned out to be 82. But I figured out this only after I had paid for retaking that three subjects. Why doesn't MCKL give us more time to consider??

After dropping business studies, I'll have more long breaks throughout the week. I suppose this is the time I'm suppose to spend catching up on those subjects which I did not do well. I'm starting to pick up the momentum to study these days. I put notices around myself to remind myself to have more self-control and be discipline. I kinda managed to force myself to spend more time on my studies. I guess I'll have to remind myself to continue blogging too. 

I think I kinda irritate people around me these days. D; I have keep my mouth shut more often I guess. Really afraid of how people look at me and how they treat me. Don't like being treated as an irritating, noisy, rude, boring, lame friend. I just have to accept the fact that not everyone likes me being me. I'll have to pray more maybe. Ask God to give me the strength and the courage to love myself more to even care about these. I can't help but feel depressed every time I face problems like this. Got ignored today. Felt like shit inside of me. D: For a second, I hated myself so badly. Ahhhh. This is getting depressing.

I guess I have to learn to live simple. To not over complicate my life, enjoying every moments in my life and stay out of trouble. I miss my best friends. I hope they don't feel that I'm abandoning them. I still love them a lot. <3 It cheers me up by thinking there is always a group of friends that will never judge me for who I am and will always accept as I am. Feel so comfortable whenever I'm with them. 

Simplicity is something I should really learn how to appreciate. Being simple is really beautiful at times. :)

NO MORE SC D:

ehehehe. I wanted to blog after my exams but then I got busier and lazier.

My edexcel exams were not so bad except for my accounting which I have totally lost interest in. I became extremely busy after my January exams because of our annual orientation ball and another 30th Anniversary dinner which I was suppose to help out with. Life as an events coordinator isn't that easy after all. I faced many problems while preparing all these events. So stressed out sometimes that made me want to cry. Orientation ball 2013 have finally ended last Friday which also includes the student council hand-over ceremony. Felt so relieved and relaxed. No more burden on my shoulders. Finally, I'm back to being a normal college student. But I dare say that I have no regrets being a student council especially taking up the position as an events coordinator. I loved my job and I believe my successor, Ernest will love it too. We had to visit hotels, make decisions, go through contracts etc. These are precious experience that not everyone has the chance to go through! We're having our SC party tomorrow~ The new SCs are going to prepare the party for us just like what we did for the previous council. :D

I went for the auditions for our CF worship team today as a vocalist. I love singing and I really hoped that I am able to serve God by serving in the CF in my college during my last semester. God had really blessed me throughout my serving in the student council. Really happy because I got a distinction for serving in the council. I felt that all those hardwork was worth while. Hopefully I'm able to get into the worship team. haha. I'm trying to cut down on all my activities in order to focus more on my studies. I suppose serving in the worship team wouldn't take up much of my time. I'm hoping to grow spritually stronger by serving in the CF and also making more good christian friends before I leave college.

I passed my key to Ernest today. I'm back to using my locker! No more SC(storage) room. D; Our qualifying test is on this coming Thurs and Fri! I've got to brush up my studies real soon. Ahh. I've sacrificed much time in the student council. haha. Now that all the ten of us got so close and attached to each other, its really hard to just seperate like that. D; I really really love my fellow council members!! <3

Thank you God for bringing me into the student council and guiding me through all the difficulties I had to face. Thank you for giving me this opportunity to experience and learn all these new things. Thank you so much LORD! :D

Oh, and do support our OB video on youtube!! :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPVySfUszHM :D

Student council, Aug'12 - Feb'13
The Justice League of MCKL

I love them <3

ORIENTATION: JAN INTAKE 2013

Had to reach college before 7am for THREE days. Gah. Sad life of a student council member.

We helped out as ushers on the first day to make sure the 1301s don't lose their way. I kinda enjoy the feeling of being a senior and a part of the college. The 1301s were a BIG group. They were like maybe three times the size of my cohort? The auditorium could not comfortably fit all of them. So the Ausmats had to go to the Chapel and we did a video transfer thing. Can you imagine how pack is Pre-U society gonna be like with all the cohorts?

On the first day, we had to stay back to help out with the treasure hunt. One of questions was about coming to us and let us give them marks based on their attire. I loved that part. Haha. We had fun with the students by giving them different tasks like citing our names and posts, singing songs...etc. I don't know whether the students think that we're evil, but I hope that they understand that these are just a process everyone had to go through during their orientation. I remember being given tasks like this too but it was just a simple one like finding out two of their names. I guess we're just a lil bit more 'fun' than the previous council. Haha.

We introduced ourselves to the 1301s on the second day. Many of them still don't understand how the student council functions. Just like me when I first came to MCKL. I didn't understand a thing about this until orientation camp is over. I'm glad some of them have already have that desire to become a student council member.

We made them wear school uniforms on Friday morning. Those who don't have school uniforms have to either borrow from their siblings/friends or wear their clothes inside out(of course, this doesn't include their inner garments). Their cohort were considered very fortunate cause their morning games was only a day. I remember for my cohort we had to wear school uniforms on the first day and our clothes inside out on the second day. I was expecting the Jan intake to be very active and noisy because they were a big group. But they were so quiet. o.o We divided them into three groups, one at the foyer, another at the agora and the last group at the basketball court. I was helping out in the basketball court. They were the biggest group yet they made the least noise. I took pictures of those being punished. Haha. Cute 1301s. :D

They're writing 'VERITAS VINCIT OMNIA' with their butt. xD

I better get back to my studies. Exams starts next Tuesday. Abigail, FIGHTING! :D

2013 A NEW START

28 days since i last updated my blog. I missed the post for Christmas. I should have expected this when I decided to blog again. I'm not  a constant blogger and I clearly know this before. But since I started, I don't want to give up.

21.12.12 The world hasn't end. Life goes on with more QUESTIONS. How would 2013 be? Will I be able to get a scholarship? Will I enter Taylor's University? Will I regret taking a law degree? 

Two families from Singapore came for Christmas this year(correction: LAST YEAR) along with my grandma . It was fun having them around. They really enjoyed the karaoke system my dad bought. We sang everyday after dinner till midnight. Cousins that came were all girls so we all slept at my room. The feeling of having a lot of people around me is really good. That also explains why I normally hate long holidays. Its because I hate the feeling of loneliness. Another uncle of mine also from Singapore came a week before Christmas. But I only spent two days with them. Christmas seem so short this year. I love Christmas and it was always the best day of the year. However, this year's Christmas isn't as interesting as the previous Christmas' I had. I suppose I forgot the most important thing which is also the main reason why we celebrate Christmas. Christmas is to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. I suppose I neglected this. 

This is what we cousins did for Christmas :D

I got a headphone from my sister for Christmas. The headphone is super expensive. O.O My sister has always been very good to me. But I have not done anything for her yet. D: My parents got me a CD player for Christmas too! I love the CD player very much. My BEST friends got me chocolate! A accessory hanger from my uncle, a snow globe from Sam, more chocolate from Pastor's wife and a special toothbrush from Sg Buloh chinese methodist church. My sister and my parents gave me presents that total up to be more than a thousand. Its really a lot for Christmas. I'm afraid I'll get spoilt. As the youngest child in the family, I know I'm a bit spoilt. And I always feel bad about this. But I got more this year. Hopefully, I can control myself. 

Very soon, in 8 days I will start my A levels exam. And I know I should be well prepared by now. BUT I'M NOT! Very disappointed with myself. Am I able to make it in 8 days? Will God punish me with bad results? God has always been very good to me. He gave me miracles. But I don't know how to appreciate it. I feel really bad sometimes. I don't want to disappoint my parents and my siblings. I should do better! Should work harder. 

Tomorrow and Thursday will be the Orientation day for the 1301 January intake students. Friday will the day for their morning games. Argh. Have to go college before 7am for this three days. I will need to study in college. I need more self control!!! 

Going to stop blogging during my exams. And hopefully I will remember to blog after my exams! :D

Dear God, please allow me to get closer to you this year and to continue to trust and have good faith in You. Also, to achieve good results to honor your name and not forgetting to have more self control and be more discipline and hardworking. Amen. 

LONG STORY

Haven't update my blog for a week. I have so much to write now. 

Last Saturday, me, Rocyie, Bryan and Joon Ren attended a Grand Opening Ceremony of a hotel. We weren't sure where the hotel is located at, so I used the GPS and the map there. On the way to the hotel, I crashed into someone else's car. D: I don't want to recall how I felt and what happened that night. But we headed to the hotel after we settled things with that car's owner. The food in the hotel was great. They had so many varieties of food. But I couldn't really enjoy myself that day. And of course, I got scolded badly when I got home. I think God is punishing me and I'll take this accident as a lesson I should really learn from.

I helped Rocyie set her hair that night. Kinda proud of it xP

Their dessert bar was so PWETTEE!

The view near their swimming pool

The live band performance :)

I love the ice cream the most

We made a police report on Sunday and decided to claim insurance for the damage on both cars. I went to collect the police report on Monday after class near Pasar Seni Lrt station. When I was walking back to the lrt station, I saw this shop selling all kinds of materials used to make accessories. Immediately I fell love with the shop. haha. I decided to make earrings and sell them. I'm planning to complete twenty one different earrings before I start selling them. I spent quite a lot of money in that shop and finally became a member. Even if I'm not able to sell earrings, I'll still enjoy making them. So I won't be wasting my money buying all these things. 

My car was sent for repair and it' ll only be done in two weeks time. I wasn't able to join my friends for hiking though I really wanted to. I felt kinda bad for causing my parents so much trouble to send me around these days. 

The scary thing that happened around me recently is car accidents. First, I got into an accident by crashing into other people's car. Second, My mum's car got hit by someone when she was fetching me to college yesterday. Third, My friend's car was hit by a van when we were on the way to Bangsar for lunch yesterday. But I should be glad that these accidents did not cause any bodily injury. I started having this weird idea that these accidents happened because of me. 

I ended my second semester last Friday. I'm currently having a study break for a month to prepare for my first Edexcel exam in January. I realised that I have been wasting a lot of time this week. Its just the first week! Gosh, I have to brush up my accounting and business this month. But thank God we had extra class for accounting this week, it helped me quite a lot. Now I just have to work more on my past year questions. 

Oh, I got my MCKL hoodie last Thursday! Love it to the max! My first hoodie :D

RM65

Christmas is coming! I plan to make something nice for my friends :D I put up the Christmas tree at home two weeks ago. Christmas is my most favorite event of the year.

It looks very simple this year.

 Thats all for today! :D Will try to update my blog more frequently!

RESTLESS DAY

Didn't have enough sleep these days which is very bad because I have to drive to college almost everyday this week.

I came for four hours of class today and unfortunately two of my lecturers didn't come to college so class was canceled. And I left one more hour of boring accounting. I went to Midvalley with Michelle and Daphne. Then Daphne left with her boyfriend after she bought her stuff. Me and Michelle went shopping after that. I skipped accounting and I feel very bad. But thank God the lecturer only discussed one question in class today. What we do in accounting class now is discussing past year papers. D: so, back to the part where I mentioned we went shopping. We both got soooo tired after that then decided to come back to college and rot with the rest of them at the cafeteria. Oh, and we saw this ladies parking in Midvalley, it was super cute! Looks like Midvalley have started aiming their ladies customers :) smart!

Our SC meeting yesterday was changed to today. We had very fun discussion during our meeting and I can see that everyone got much closer already. I'm so happy to be in the same council as them. Love them :)

That's about it for today. Gotta sleep early today. Nights everyone. Really happy to know that someone actually reads my blog. :D

Picture: Michelle trying to make my day.

FRIDAY <3

It's Friday, Friday, gotta get down on Friday.

The song actually irritates me but I can't help singing it today. We had our Malaysian studies test today. I didn't bother to study at all. We basically just have to make sure we pass the exam, which most of us did even without taking the exams. The total mark includes our assignments, attendance and the test. With our assignment and attendance marks, most of us have already passed Malaysian studies. Most of us just sat at the exam hall for half an hour and came out. :)

Went for bible study just now and they were having steamboat. I ate too much again. D: talking about losing weight haha. My mum teased me about my aim to lose weight again. Had a very meaningful time with the rest of the youths this evening. It was a good time of fellowship.

About yesterday, my dad attended the parents lecturer conference. I did improve in my trials this time but my results are still not satisfying. I can see that my dad was very disappointed. Sorry daddy. D: Mr. Yow came up to me this afternoon and asked me why did I look so tensed up when I was with my dad yesterday. I guess people don't really get how my parents are like sometimes. I know them quite well and of course I respect them a lot. And I'm trying to be very careful in front of my parents. I don't know how to explain this but some of my friends think that my parents look very serious and strict. But actually I think it's how you communicate with them. My parents are very observant. And they are actually very fun too, it's just how you communicate with them. I know that they are very particular with manners. But I guess they're only like that when it comes to my friends. I can see that they are trying to protect me from bad influences. Hence I don't usually bring my friends home. But I still love them. I think they brought me, my brother and my sister up very well. To see whether the parents are good, you look at their children. Children normally reflect what their parents taught them. If you think I suck, then it'll be understandable that you don't really like my parents. Looking at my elder siblings, I will think that my parents are like the best because I think they're close to perfection as in character and in education. I'm like the lousier one in the family. Haha. I feel so stress sometimes. I would want to be like my parents when I grow up next time. I would want to do the same thing to my children. I wouldn't care what people think about me but I would care what people will think about my children. Ahhhh. Feel like a mother now :P proud to be in the Cheong family!

Oh, and I almost forgot. It's my lovely brother's birthday today! I kinda miss him a little already. D: happy birthday!

Hmm. That's basically it for today. :)

HER BIRTHDAY

Just the thought of waking up early for class tomorrow is driving me crazy. Why are weekends so short?! D:

Py and Hs's birthday was on Friday. We went to Sentul for dinner. There's this restaurant in Sentul that sells really delicious Fish curry! *sluurrrrp! Aww I miss the food now. After that we headed to Desa Park City to 'celebrate' her birthday. Haha. We brought the cake JY made and we had really cute candles on top of the cake! However, our dream of having a perfect place to blow and cut the cake didn't come true. The wind at the park was so big that we couldn't even light up all the candles at once. But we did let her at least blow a few of those cute candles. That was a really nice place. I would love to go there again! :D

For the presents, I didn't spend a lot of time preparing it this year cause I couldn't think of anything special to give to them. Finally I got HS a roll of toilet paper printed with sudoku puzzles and two packs of tissues printed like money. Haha. It was something special I guess. And I bought PY a top which I think would suite her a lot.

Me, Susan and Michelle leaded worship for the Sunday school today! It wasn't as bad as I thought though I did predicted some things to happen. The kids weren't active enough but it's good that they don't run around during the worship. It was a good experience for the three of us! Kids aren't that easy to handle as we think. I learned that many years ago. I used to play a lot with children. But as I grow up, I tend to have less patience with children already. But thank You God for giving us this chance to serve in the church! :)

I'm posting the picture of us at Desa Park City on Friday night. :) Unfortunately someone closed his eyes.

FLAT HAIR

I've got my hair permanently flat and I feel kinda dumb.

Went to the saloon to get my hair 'ironed' today. Haha. Came back with my hair being super flat though the guy emphasized that this is volume rebonding, which is ACTUALLY suppose to make my hair look more natural. However, I'm back with this hair which I consider super flat and can't be any flat'er' already. At least my mum said it looked good. When I showed my dad my hair, he laughed and said 'wa, you must have spent a lot of money on this!' haha :D I wonder what happens when my friends see me tomorrow. Oh well, it's permanent and I can't do anything.

I'm getting more and more relaxed these days. Been watching a lot of dramas and wasting my time. How am I gonna get prepared for the actual Edexcel in January? I'm procrastinating . D: someone motivate me to study please. Haha

Back to my daily devotion with God. Thanks to a friend that decided that we should remind each other to do devotion everyday. I feel the guilt in myself sometimes when I tend to forget to pray and only seek God's help in difficult situations. I know God is watching. I have just read the testimony of a Singaporean doctor, Mr Richard Teo who had just passed away last month. He shared about how God worked in his life which had made it a wonderful testimony for the rest of us. If you're interested to read his testimony, feel free to ask me to send you the email :D though I'm not really sure if anyone actually reads my blog. I guess many don't know that I blog. Haha. Just like what I told my dad, I blog not for the sake of letting people read and comment but to help myself improve my English and at the same time treat this as a form of my diary.

I shall stop here today. :D