Feeling
DIRTY
ROTTEN
DISGUSTING
IRRITATING
EVIL
BROKEN.
Those are basically the words that I want to use to describe myself at the moment.
Didn't want to share it on Facebook. Don't need any comments, don't need any comfort. I just wanna share this with someone, telling them how bad I actually feel about myself. It's so bad I can't even bother to show how rotten I am.
She is right. I am not any different than those magicians. Only regret I had is to make her sad today. But I made my own decision before I went. Was absolutely clear in my mind of what I was doing. I wished that there were better solutions to this. I guess I just did not have enough faith in God. :(
I know myself. I know myself deep in and out. All the things I've done. Only myself,
and God understands. And maybe my only solution will be God and only He can take me as I am despite all my sins.
It's the post of the day. Just not in the mood to elaborate further more.
Oh, and I went for the rally in Kelana Jaya stadium today. It was epic :)
